give it a try

the sky is cloudy, dark as the day is already gone. it's not raining now, although the threat is there, ever present, hiding inside the clouds. it's cold outside. and inside. i should close my window, but i'm not up to it. i don't know why - the bleak sky has no moon today, so i can't fix my gaze on it's pale brightness and sigh all night long. what keeps me here, then, freezing with the passing wind, staring at an empty sky? a sight, maybe. a dream. an emptiness i feel inside me every time i look around and see what i see all the time. because there's something missing. someone. someone who makes the most colourless scenario seem full of life. someone who gives a meaning to a book of meaningless words. someone who make me feel warm and comfortable - even happy. god, happy! how i longed for this over the years, the utter impossibility of our lives! i know you are here - even though you are far, too far away, where i cannot see you and tell you how much i miss you and how much i love you. you are here. inside me. but i miss your warm touch, your soft lips, your ever dreaming eyes, your rebel hair... i could cry all this to the bleak skies and hope you to hear me. would you? i don't know. yet you're worth to give it a try.