secret

it was so obvious that it almost hurts me how have i only realised it now. of course. the reasons you gave me for your denial seemed to somehow lack sense. but now they have it at last. you refused only because accepting it, doing it, would imply the exposure of your little secret. and not merely the exposure by they realising it, by being inevitable, but for being you the one who would have to expose it. it was that or a lie. between those two, you chose to left me behind. for that secret. it's a fair trade.