blindness

somethings are better left unknown. for example, i've met people who would like to know when they were to die, so they could prepare and make the best out of their lifes - as for myself, i can't imagine anything more painful than that. yet sometimes i'd really like to know what lies ahead. not my death, of course, but smaller things, little consequences of choices i know i'll end up facing. but alas, i know now what is about to come, so i'm left blind in the darkness.

in the end, it's all a matter of trust. we can try to trust someone, but a small cloud of doubt always remains, always lingers in the back of our minds (and we'd be blind by faith if the sky was unclouded). and past experiences are not always helpful. not at all.