interrupted

valerie: what would you have said to her?
susanna: i don't know.
(pause)
susanna: that i was sorry. that i'll never know what it was like to be her. but i know what it's like to wanna die. how it hurts to smile. how you try to fit in, but you can't. how you hurt yourself on the outside... to try to kill the thing on the inside.

girl, interrupted, 1999