the monster within

you will have a comparison term. and sooner than you think. you're pretty much in a "hyde" phase: the little devil within you has been caged for too long, and now it has come out roaring. and now he wants to live everything you have denied him (yourself) for all those years, and he wants to do it fast. and he's doing it fast, and he's dragging you along; and in all that rush, you are not given the time to understand the path you're walking. and it's a dangerous one, you know? you don't know your limits anymore, for they used to be too thin, and your outburst scattered all the borders across the four winds. you don't know when to stop. or where. or how, for that matter. you don't want to. live fast, you think. but it won't bring you anything back, for what's lost is lost and will be forever lost, no matter what you do or how hard you do it.