not quite envy

of all the deadly sins, there are two i seldom fall into: greed and envy. i don't usually fall into greed because, well, i never have any money anyway. and i've never been an envious person. i might get disappointed when someone gets something that we both wanted, but it is never because the other got it - the bitterness comes only from my own failure, not by someone else's success. but i get royally pissed when i see that success i so much wanted be wasted for futile reasons. now that really drives me mad. and that's not quite envy, i suppose.