a placebo does not heal, you know?

it is obvious that right now you want me nowhere near you. eventually, i've come to represent all that you loathe - and now, my mere shadow would threaten your "healing". it's funny to think that i have the power to shatter the foundations of your newfound world at will, isn't it? but that says more about you than about me, really. for it is a fact that i'm a negative person, pessimist, selfish, dark and without many beliefs; but the fact that you don't want to get back everything that has been lost between us, however, proves how weak is that healing of yours: you are not prepared to face me. you are not prepared to have rain on your parade. in other words, you are not ready to face the reality that lies beyond the white walls of your little ivory tower.what a pity.