to socialize with ourselves

people are afraid of loneliness, and i can't help wondering why. people tend to see loneliness - any form of it - as something alien, something that is fundamentally wrong, that should not take place under any circumstance. i really don't share that feeling. have learned the hard way not to depend on others to do something i want to do. to go out and have a beer alone does not scare me, as the beer, a couple of cigarrettes and my journal or a nice book can be a fairly decent company most of times. going to the movies alone is not something weird for me either - i mean, during the film we are not supposed to talk, are we? only if the movie is really crappy anyway. having lunch or dinner alone became an habit in my teenage years, due to my parents' jobs, so nowadays going lunching or dining alone, at home or in a restaurant, is relatively normal. most people that surround me, though, find it rather weird, and even sad. "you went out for dinner alone? why?", or "why haven't you told me, i would have gone with you?" are questions i've grown used to answer in the same dry manner. fortunately, i don't lack company, yet (as far as i know). but sometimes i do lack the will to ring/text/e-mail/messaging someone. it's pretty much like those circumstances when i really do need to see someone, to talk with someone, and browse my entire contact list into a frenzy, searching for the right person, only to end up calling nobody. there is no right person. and sometimes we must be alone. yes, we are social beings. but being social with others means nothing if we can't socialize with ourselves. so to speak.