downfall

can we die and not know it? i thought not, but you've shown me how wrong i was. ironically enough i was given the front seat to watch your downfall. not that watching it gives me any pleasure. it doesn't. it's always sad to see something like that becoming dust. but it's not surprising either. years and years of carelessness, of believing - if you can believe anything anyway - that everything would be all right if you didn't touch it have fallen into this - you've lost it all. ever heard of a flower that blooms without being nourished? i guess not. but you understood that something was going awry. and you did something - something reckless and stupid, something that no one should ever do. you think you got away with it but you didn't.

it's funny. so many years later and your old sin catches up with you and hits you right in the face. you haven't felt it yet. but you will. and then you'll remember everything that you have sacrificed needlessly. and then you'll remember me. had you asked earlier and i would have warned you - not that you would have listened, but i would have warned you nonetheless. now i won't. i'm taking no sides, but as i decided not to pass judgement over one, i won't help the other either. i will just see it all fall. won't even turn my back on you, just as you probably deserved. i will just stay there. watching the ruins. going nowhere, doing nothing. just watching.