birthday

now i remember the reason why i never celebrate my birthday like most people do, with a great dinner with a lot of friends or even a party. i have no patience for it. i don't like to be with too many people at the same time - a group bigger than six is already a crowd. i don't like to scatter my attention across everyone, ending up paying too little attention to each of the guests. i don't like to organize a dinner, see people saying yes and then no at the last minute, be worried about getting everyone comfortable, waiting for those who are arriving late (and making everyone else wait). really, i can't be arsed.

five years ago, i thought "fuck all that". on my birthday, i invited one of my best friends to have dinner with me. great evening, good food, excelent conversation. last year i've cooked a dinner and invited two of my best friends. nice evening at night with them, then a walk out that was funny. no crowds. no scattered attention. best ideias ever. 

this year i don't know what i'll do, but it won't be far from any of these options.