A scaled-down tyrant

I'm not a leader. Not a natural one, I mean - I can lead something when necessary, as I've unwillingly done many times already, in moments of little to no consequence. But a real leader - I simply couldn't handle the responsibility. But above all I don't think I could handle another thing: the necessity to be rough and stubborn and mean. In short, a scaled-down tyrant, as all leaders must be at some point. With very little exceptions, a friendly leader is a short-lived one, as one rules over subjects, underlings - not friends. Never friends. Make a friend with one of your underlings, and your leadership is undermined, despite all the good intentions in this world. Worse yet - act like a leader towards one of your underling-friends, and they won't be able to help taking personally any action you might possibly take. No, a leader cannot be a friend - and I prefer to be a friend in the shadows than a stranger - estranged - under a spotlight.