what pains me is not my fear. it's the fact that world keeps spinning around, no matter what. everything has a right moment to happen; we can either miss it or hit the target. but we do never have time to think about it. we can hesitate, delay the innevitable. but once the moment arrives, it's gone and it's gone for good. only after it's done can we realise that it was the wrong time, the wrong place, the wrong words. only after it's done can we understand how far can it go. only after it's done can we realise how deep will we fall.