messy me

according to my sun sign, gemini, and my ascendant, cancer, my personality is made by two different sides - one rational and one emotional. i'd add a third one - the boiling imagination. now, these three instances inside me are struggling with each other all the time. and so, they get divided into multiple instances that define me as i am. which means:

- the imagination that is always creating new worlds of fantasy where my soul seeks some inner peace;

- the imagination that is always imagining what i feel or what i could feel;

- the imagination that is always imagining what i think, that i could think and what i should have thought;

- the imagination that doesn't trust anything or anyone and is always expecting the worst things to happen;

- the emotions, that feel those noble feelings such as love, friendship and so on;

- the emotions made by negative feeling, plus my emotive skepticism, unfaithful and cronically pessimist;

- the reason that thinks;

- the reason that thinks, but always expects the worst;

- the reason that thinks, but doesn't believe in myself and keeps fighting my feelings;

- the reason that thinks and doesn't not believe in anyone - me included.

now join all these instances in the same shaker, add some ice and voilà! there's me. god damn it, what a mess i am.