change

i don't mind taking risks. i actually like to do it. to challenge myself. i just don't like this choice, and the risks it implies: i'm stuck in my life at the moment, and i hate it with a passion, but following the alternative path might not be my brightest idea. okay, financially speaking it can't be worse (and if is, there is no choice whatsoever), and it will probably much better. but does it make it up for everything - and everyone - i'd leave behind? would it really be a good change, or just a silly mistake? and this time it won't be neutral. no, this time it will be like it was before, when it was time for another great change: there will be pressure, there will be threats, there will be blackmail.