not to know

i'd like to have never known some things. really. i'd really like that. so those things, and the possibilities they would have opened would remain unknown, and most important, they would remain far, far away from my mind, instead of assaulting my memory now and then. and to be quite honest, i'd rather not to have them coming back. well, i'd rather have never known them at all. they added nothing but sorrow, and if you want me to tell you the truth, i think i'e had enough of that lately.