misconception

in the end it never goes as he plan, no matter how carefully we set up everything. sometimes we can't get others excited enough about it, keeping the whole thing from going forward. and sometimes we magically get everyone overexcited, and it all goes hectic after some point. i don't know, but it pissed the hell out of me, and i did nothing to hide that feeling (as a matter of fact, i don't think i could). so this is what screws me up big time: to do something, i usually need support (meaning, i need to feel it's worth the trouble by someone's interest on it). but now and then it's that support who ends up killing it for me, thus ruining the whole idea.

oh well.