grave digger

i should know better: to dig into the past makes one feel old. and yes, it's possible to feel old like some fucking dinossaur when you're twenty-three. you just need to dig out some pictures - which i did -, let those good moments came back to your mind - and they came -, and start making calculations about when they happened - which i also did. a lot of good moments came back all of a sudden, and i started to think about them (not that i had a choice in that matter), and i was rather astonished to realize they've happened quite a long time ago. almost a lifetime ago, actually. and as i was roaming through those long-lost moments, i also realized that it has also been a long time, a very long time, since i've felt good. since i've felt happy, i mean really happy, fulfilled, untouchable. memory is a terrible thing, i tell you.