the receiving end

it's getting harder and harder, you know? something is amiss. something has changed and i haven't noticed what it was. but there is little tolerance now, and a lot more mistrust. and i don't like it, i don't like it at all, because it might mean i'm losing something i can't really afford to lose. not now. not in any circumstance, perhaps. i remember now, this was felt before, i believe, but the other way around. now i'm the one in the receiving end. and i don't like it. we never do.