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long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton] long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton]


March 31, 2009

and pushing us into self-destruction

somehow i've realised that all that concept of "twin souls" when it comes to love is not for me. i won't explain why yet. i'll just tell you this: a girl that had everything i like about a girl wouldn't have me falling for her. i suppose i'm more into the "cold-hearted bitch" stereotype. i suppose i can easily fall for someone who could scorn at romance, who would kill any sweetness, any "romantic" thing. someone who could turn love, real love, into what it must be: a destructive force. someone who would force me to battle every day not to let her overtake me and destroy me on a whim. this would be my perfect love: a force that would have me near death every day, one that pushed me and her so far that we would be inevitably drawn together.

this is just a theory, of course; one that is most likely flawed by assuming i can fall in love again. but flawed or not, it helps explaining a lot of things.

12:07 PM

 

7 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are weird and random lol

and can you explain why people fall for those who do bad to them when there are other perfectly nice people out there for them?

I would love to hate love one day.

31/3/09 18:21  
Anonymous john said...

i know, i know :)

that, unfortunately, cannot be explained by reason, as one cannot explain why one falls in love with x and not with y. at least not to my knowledge. what i do know is, sometimes the fact that someone hurts us doesn't keep us from loving them.

31/3/09 20:11  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

or we just love to get hurt lol

31/3/09 20:37  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lay off The Fountainhead! That's the Howard Roarke in you talking.

1/4/09 00:11  
Anonymous john said...

roark is surely a source of inspiration, but it's not him here. i've just realised a funny thing about myself, that's all. it's not like roark because, well, i'm far from being like him.

i'm more like holden caulfield, actually. as a matter of fact, i'm just like him. salinger was thinking of me when he wrote the book, that's for sure!

1/4/09 08:31  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bleh, you're depressing me, I'm going elsewhere lol

Have a nice day :)

1/4/09 12:42  
Anonymous john said...

lol. have a nice day as well. mine will be consumed by work... and this is a depressing thought!*

1/4/09 12:52  

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