thoughts in chaos

long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton] all life long the same questions, the same answers. [samuel beckett]


March 15, 2009

to backfire

more than having anyone who cares about me, i really feel i need someone who can make shut the fuck up. i don't know why i keep doing it, but it has always backfired. always. god damn it. see, one can never be sure about someone's reactions. you go on thinking that you know everything, that you know exactly what to expect; but you're wrong, oh you are so wrong. sometimes people surprise you.

so right now i have to deal with the fact that i'll be creating more memories, when what i should be doing was to erase all that could be erased. i'm creating expectations when i should just be here on my own, quiet and alone. and i'm getting into free trouble, as if i didn't have enough of that already. heh. someone wish me good luck, please. i'm so going to need it. 

3:12 AM

 

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:]

x

15/3/09 07:10  

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