i also told you i was not good at making titles.

i know i promise i would write something about it, but the fact is, i've been rather uninspired today. you know, it's much easier to write when one's sad, and lately i've been far from that. anyway. to write something... well, there was so many things i could say. i could go on about what i've been living. about what i feel. about my expectations. about my wishes. these four topics would be enough for me to update this blog for one entire year on a daily basis - with several posts per day, mind you. but i won't do that - at least not that way. i suppose it would be too easy, and since there's nothing easy on all this, why start it here? anyway. before this post starts making even less sense than it does already (haha), i'll say something that you already know: it has been a long, long time since i've smiled like this. almost three years, to me more accurate. and yet i do it now, and i do it because of you and for you. and you can't imagine how glad i am for that.