Inertia

The problem is, I can't stand mediocrity - as ironic as that can be, for I'm one of the most mediocre people I know. Guess it is my Holden Caulfield complex stacking over my Stand-Alone complex (yes, this has a copyright). But I suppose that it is what has kept me frozen for so long. The idea of spending my life working on something that won't be really good but only so-so makes me sick. I can't do it, can't set myself into motion for something that I believe to be worthless in the end. And so I stop, I can't help myself on it, there is no will to move anywhere.