full emptiness (II)

the school's view in that rainy day astonished him. despite the clouds there was light all around. everything was bright, noisy, full of life. "yet it's amazing", he thought, his sad eyes seeking a familiar face in vain, "how can this crowded place feel so empty when she's not around..."

it was true more than two years ago, when i wrote it. now the background have changed - i'm no longer at school, and our lives have considerably changed meanwhile. yet i still have this feeling. the feeling of emptiness when you're not around. when i know nothing of you. even on instant messaging - one gets so used to talk to someone, to constantly see someone's virtual presence, that when the presence turns into absence one feels somewhat lost.

this to say that i'm constantly checking my instant messaging window, even without being aware of it. kinda miss you, you know?