thoughts in chaos

long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton] don't ever tell anybody anything. if you do, you start missing everybody. [j.d.salinger]


February 05, 2008

readers' blog: the path of fate

for countless years i tried to give my life a meaning, seeking order in all the different realms of human existence. i’ve walked. i've ran. i’ve tried shortcuts. i’ve stepped into crossroads and made my own choices - maybe the right ones, maybe the wrong ones. i don’t really think it matters any more.

and when i felt myself right in the void, with all the hope to open my eyes and see what was around me gone, and gone for good, i fell. like a stone, i fell. like some piece of debris cast ashore, hardened and motionless. empty of feelings and full of nothing. and there i stood, lying fetal on the cold grounds, until i felt the revolution of the skies. the world thundered on my head, and everything around was roaming with rage. chaos had just broken free, relentlessly assaulting me. a hurricane of sensations flooded into my chest and sent me tumbling down again.

when the tumbling stopped, it was as if my head was misplaced. chaos had arrived to my life, to my very existence. it hadn’t come alone, however; it had brought along with it something i had searched for so long – sheer and strong sensations, unrelenting feelings and passions.


the chaos saved me.

special guest star: shelyra

11:33 PM

 

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