cumulonimbus

i was smoking a cigarrette out in the balcony when a thread of thought started to form: drowning. yeah, in that moment i felt like drowning. not that i know how drowning feels like (or i wouldn't be here not, at this late hout, writing this smart-assed words), but well, somehow i felt like sinking into the water, and falling into panic and despair. and struggling - and the more i struggle, the more i sink into the bleak dephts, the further away i get from the surface where i can breathe again.

this was supposed to be the point when i left the balcony and sat again in front of the computer. then i thought not drowning, i mean.... that's silly, i can't even swim (which is true, by the way). quicksand. yeah, i gave it a second thought. quicksand. quicksand. kinda like the word, and the meaning is pretty much the same. but then i thought, oh well, perhaps i could go to google images and see some pictures, perhaps could even check wikipedia and see what they say about quicksand. 

and so i did.

and i ended up spending the last hours reading about the dead sea, the aral sea. and then the great salt lake, the black sea, the mediterranean sea, the red sea, the tethys ocean, the pacific ocean, the great rift, volcanoes, tornadoes, waterspouts, cloud formations (cumulonimbus and such), supercells and lightning bolts. really, browsing wikipedia sometimes males me wonder, why on earth have i followed journalism? i mean, i might well be one big waste of a biologist, or a geologist. or something like that.

and now i should put links to all these subjects, but to be quite honest i can't be arsed to do so. maybe tomorrow.