taking sides

you could never be on my side. it doesn't mean you're against me, of course, but it means that even though you decided to remain neutral throughout the fight, you would have to step to one of the trenches to tend the wounded after the war was over. and you could never come to my side, no matter how righteous was my cause or how low was the warfare of my adversary. i don't blame you for that, and i will never mistake you as my enemy; but i know i will never count on you for anything. i know it's sad. i know it's yet another loss. but it's inevitable. can't be helped.