merciful lies

i wonder if i keep lying not to hurt her, or to whack her completely with the truth. i know that sometimes to lie might be an act of sheer mercy. and she's so convinced of her truth that it would break her in two if i was to be completely honest with her. and i could do it, i could do it easily enough, and she would have no way to strike back because i would make it all so obvious. meh. i'll go on lying. it's not nice. it might not be the right thing to do. but if she wants to believe in illusions, who the hell am i to deny her that?