late as ever. can't help wondering: how long will i stand this? i know that sooner or later i'll be judged and convicted, and it won't be exactly wrong - i admit as much. and yet, there is a difference between being judged by a superior person (wiser, more experienced, etc) and by an inferior person who happens only to hold more power - not by his or her own merit, but merely by a coincidence. do you know what i'm doing now? i'm looking at the proof - by yourself - that experience itself means so, so little. it won't be me, though, who will help you out on that. i tried, using all the subtlety i could spare. you're on your own - and i'll pretend to play the game by its rules until i need it no more.