thoughts in chaos

long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton] long is the way and hard that out of hell leads up to the light. [john milton]


August 26, 2006

relatively speaking...

... but still, sometimes our problems, those that seem so huge and so hard to solve, are hardly anything but futile.

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August 24, 2006

there is always a catch

always a catch.

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August 23, 2006

oh my fucking god...

... i'm getting addicted to solitaire. even worse than world of warcraft or cigarrettes, although healthier for sure. this is the proof that i've been in this god forsaken village for too long. help! get me out of here!
(*praying for this week to go as fast as possible*)

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August 22, 2006

quoth the raven:

it is always possible to do better. but it isn't always needed.

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August 21, 2006

blue

lack of expectations can truly bring the sweetest surprises. that afternoon was the best i could get. how i wish to be with you again by the calm, blue waters, watching the sun warming your ever sweet smile..!

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August 17, 2006

lost lullaby

the cold, falling rain, pouring all night long. a lost lullaby for my ears.

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August 16, 2006

autumn's word


(picture by kevin thom)

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autumn

autumn arrived sooner this year. the soft, even warm music of the rain announed its return - the raindrops that never dropped today, but that i've been feeling in my once warm skin for quite some time. soon, the durty ground will be spotted by puddles of mud. soon, the wind will run unchecked, chilling the winners and the losers alike. soon, very soon, the trees will be stripped naked, their once proud-green leaves covering the muddy ground, rotting to oblivion. but then again, it won't be that different than now, will it..?

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August 15, 2006

murphy was right

when one thing goes wrong, everything else goes wrong was well. as if i wasn't having enough, now my poor connection went mad. one more step towards insanity in this god-forsaken village. i'm so fucked up.

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August 14, 2006

i wished...

when i'm sad she comes to me,
with a thousand smile she gives to me free...
it's all right, it's all right, she says,
take anything you want from me.
anything...
(the corrs, little wing; jimi hendrix cover)

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the time of trials

i'd given up walking. it was pointless. there was nowhere to go under the scorching sun. i stumbled and i fell, my last strenght leaving my body with every sweat drop that falls to the sand. sand. wish it was quicksand to swallow me whole, to oblivion, until no trace remained of me.

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in the end, it's always the same

the thing is, i'm always expecting the worse. and one day i hit the mark.

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August 13, 2006

quoth the raven:

we have no more beginnings.

(george steiner)

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message in a bottle

walked out this morning, don't believe what i saw:
hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore.
seems i'm not alone in being alone,
hundred billion castaways, looking for a home.

(the police)

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thorns

life is but a narrow path in a jungle of thorns. we walk it blindfolded only to bleed until the end.

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August 12, 2006

flesh wound

when we have a flesh wound on our knee, no matter how careful we are, we can't avoid the inevitable: something will going to hit the wound, causing it to bleed again. the same goes for our weaknesses. we can try to hide them, to be stronger than them, but in the end, they always mean our failure. our demise. because, in one way or another, they will be exposed - and unavoidable.

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August 10, 2006

a stranger far from home

is how i feel as i see the distance passing me by, leaving the wide sea behind the countless hills. for i feel more at home in that small, sunny town by the ocean than in the village where i was born so many years ago. it's sad, but true.

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chaos will always prevail. it is better organized.

thoughts and chaos by

  • john raynes
  • [ jeraynes[at]gmail[dot]com ]

present past:

  • suicide note
  • euphoria and broken glass
  • tear drop
  • requiem for lothorethiel
  • self-inflicted pain
  • the girls we followed home
  • untamed
  • the stand alone friend

guest stars:

  • anonymous
  • delerium14
  • alice
  • shelyra
  • jill
  • virginia

second home:

  • jardim de micróbios
  • viagem a andrómeda

friends:

  • Damn, life, you scary!
  • era um manual de instruções, por favor
  • hoje voltei a ver
  • i'm just killing time
  • lady chatterley
  • tudo e nada

personal favourites:

  • a lei seca
  • aurea mediocritas
  • complexidade e contradição
  • locus amoenus
  • ouriquense
  • postsecret
  • the tugboat complex
  • vontade indómita

early morning laughs:

  • bug comic
  • sinfest
  • xkcd

politically speaking:

  • blasfemias
  • delito de opinião
  • estado sentido
  • o insurgente
  • portugal dos pequeninos
  • 31 da armada

outside world:

  • a forum of ice and fire
  • dead air space

recent chaos:

  • Eulogy
  • Spaceport
  • Lifeless
  • Undertow
  • Smoke and mirrors
  • Mistakes
  • Cast no shadow
  • Love will tear us apart
  • Lady Winter
  • Music doesn't really get any better than this

the past (un)perfect:

  • October 2005
  • November 2005
  • December 2005
  • January 2006
  • February 2006
  • March 2006
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